"from nowhere while in our shadow a crack appears in the pain and our awareness moves to what caused the pain"
Have you ever had a situation that triggers you?
When I say trigger, I mean you feel it deep down to your core and it feels like your heart and soul ache in unison. One of those times that brings such an emotional response that tears stream from your eyes for hours and your body aches so much that breathing hurts. When people’s comfort slides off you like water down the glass.
Do you recognize one of these moments?
I’ve had one of those moments.
In these moments, emotions take us on a journey where we would not rationally go. We will do and say things that are out of character. Maybe we yell, scream, or lash out in some other way. In these moments all we can sense is the pain felt. And as we do, we’ll drop into our shadow self.
Then from nowhere while in our shadow a crack appears in the pain and our awareness moves to what caused the pain. That is, what someone did or said which took us on this painful journey. It’s still all about us though. The only difference now is we’ve lifted our heads from the depth of despair to acknowledge where the anguish originated from.
This is the moment we need to pause but don’t. We are not connected to our consciousness but rather our shadow. In this space, we seek to bring balance to the situation. Our version of balance, anyway. Once again this may be saying or doing something that we regret.