Where Have You Been Ignoring Spirit’s Messages?

It sounds like a simple question, but sometimes the answer is not obvious.

And I am certainly not immune to this.

I am pretty good at noticing the signs Spirit gives me in everyday life. I notice the synchronicities, the conversations, the energetic shifts, the things that happen at exactly the right moment.

But sometimes, when the message is connected to one of my own patterns, my spiritual team needs to give me a serious shake up.

That happened to me this weekend.

Spirit wanted me to see something.

More importantly, they wanted me to break a pattern.

And apparently, I wasn't listening quite as well as I thought I was.

The Feather, The Brick and The Truck

I have always said Spirit will offer you a feather, then a brick, then eventually a truck if that is what it takes to get your attention or course correct you.

The feather is subtle.

A feeling.

A thought that keeps returning.

A conversation that makes you pause.

Something feels slightly uncomfortable, but it is easy enough to dismiss.

Then comes the brick.

Something happens that is much harder to ignore.

You know something needs to change.

In my case, I had received the feather.

Then I received the brick.

And I genuinely thought I had taken the action required to avoid the truck.

Apparently, I hadn't.

So Spirit sent the truck.

For me, the truck came in the form of a four hour health event.

And when something is happening physically, four hours gives you a lot of time to think.

For the first few hours, I was focused on what was happening in my body, working with my own healing abilities and doing what I needed to do in the moment.

But around hour three, something shifted.

I stopped focusing solely on what was physically happening and sat with my spiritual team.

I asked them a different question.

Why am I experiencing this? What are you trying to show me that I am still not seeing?

The answer came.

And it wasn't necessarily the answer I wanted.

It was about a pattern.

My pattern.

Something I needed to acknowledge, understand and ultimately change.

I acknowledged what they were showing me. I acknowledged what I needed to do.

And then the event stopped.

I thought that was it.

Lesson received.

Apparently not.

Then Came The Test

The following day, I found myself in a two hour conversation.

My spiritual team does this to me all the time.

They show me something, then life presents an opportunity to see whether I have actually integrated it.

Because awareness and integration are two very different things.

You can understand your pattern intellectually and still repeat it emotionally.

This conversation was deep.

It was filled with great questions, the kind of questions that don't allow you to hide behind the answer you normally give.

And I cried.

For almost two hours, I cried, talked, reflected and processed what was coming up.

Not because something terrible was happening.

Because I was finally seeing something differently.

I could see the pattern.

I could see where it came from.

I could see how it had protected me in the past.

And I could also see how that same pattern could now prevent me from receiving something I had actually asked the universe for.

That was the moment.

The universe had placed an opportunity in front of me, a gift I had asked for, and my old patterns and behaviours could have caused me to completely bypass it.

Imagine that.

We spend so much time asking the universe for what we want.

We ask for love.

We ask for opportunity.

We ask for abundance.

We ask for connection.

We ask for growth.

Then it arrives and sometimes we don't recognise it because receiving it requires us to behave differently.

Sometimes The Block Isn't Outside You

This is where spiritual development becomes uncomfortable.

It is easy to look outside ourselves and identify what other people need to change.

It is much harder to sit in our own energy and ask,

What am I doing?

What pattern am I repeating?

What am I protecting?

What am I afraid will happen if I respond differently?

What am I pushing away while telling myself I am protecting my boundaries?

What opportunity am I asking the universe to give me while unconsciously behaving in a way that prevents me from receiving it?

Sometimes what we call intuition is actually fear.

Sometimes what we call boundaries are old protection mechanisms.

Sometimes what we call discernment is avoidance.

And sometimes Spirit isn't asking you to walk away.

Spirit is asking you to stay, feel, reflect and respond differently.

That takes courage.

Your Patterns Were Created For A Reason

I don't believe we need to shame ourselves for our patterns.

Most of them once served us.

They developed through relationships, family dynamics, trauma, attachment, rejection, disappointment and experiences where we learned what we needed to do to feel safe.

But what protected you once can eventually become the thing restricting you.

That is why consciousness matters.

You cannot change a pattern you cannot see.

And sometimes you cannot see it alone.

Sometimes Spirit sends a person.

A conversation.

A trigger.

An experience.

Or apparently, if you're me, a bloody truck.

Not to punish you.

To make the unconscious conscious.

Maybe The Sign Isn't What You Think It Is

We often think signs from the universe will feel beautiful.

Feathers.

Repeating numbers.

Songs.

Butterflies.

Perfect synchronicities.

Sometimes they do.

But sometimes the sign is discomfort.

Sometimes it is the conversation you don't want to have.

Sometimes it is someone asking you a question that hits somewhere you weren't expecting.

Sometimes it is a situation repeating itself until you finally realise that the common denominator is you.

And sometimes the guidance isn't telling you what is going to happen next.

It is showing you what needs to change within you so you are ready for what comes next.

That was my lesson this weekend.

I had asked the universe for something.

The opportunity was there.

But before I could fully receive it, I needed to recognise the part of myself that could push it away.

Spirit had shown me.

First the feather.

Then the brick.

Then the truck.

And finally, the test.

So perhaps there is something for you to reflect on too.

What pattern are you repeating?

What pattern aren't you seeing within yourself?

What keeps appearing in different people, relationships or situations?

What have you labelled as a boundary that might actually be protection or avoidance?

And what is Spirit trying to show you that you haven't been ready to see?

Because sometimes the thing standing between you and what you have asked the universe for isn't another person, bad timing or a closed door.

Sometimes it is simply an old version of you trying to keep you safe in a life you have already outgrown.

And maybe the sign you have been waiting for has already arrived.

The question is, are you ready to see it before Spirit has to send the truck?